My husband and I were married for 22 years. We have now been divorced for 9 months. After we were married for 7 years he committed adultery with a topless dancer. I knew he struggled with pornography before we got married, and that as a Christian man it was really difficult for him. Sex was his drug of choice. After he confessed his 3 month affair, I forgave him. I struggled deeply for 8 years before I could really feel that I was "over" it. I had plenty of people I could talk to, but it still hurt deeply and I lost so much of myself.
My name is Trish and I am a greatful believer in Jesus Christ who struggles with anger, unforgiveness, and codependency.
My husband came clean, I mean really clean this time, about four months ago. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had been riding him hard and was relentless. He had come clean here and there in the past but I knew deep down there was more. Finally, one day at work, God brought him to his knees. He sent me texts letting me know that he was going to tell me everything when he got home and it was really bad and to please not leave him.